The Dying Love

I was floating. 

 I was taken to places familiar to me. And It was happening so fast!

I was on the road, but I wasn’t walking. I couldn’t feel my feet on the floor, instead I felt I was flying just above the pavement!

“I know this place” I said to myself when I saw the old oak tree.
 I had been there several times.

With her.

 I remembered the winter night when we made fire under the shade of that hospitable tree. We slept under the open sky with stars above us. I can still hear the roaring of the fire due to night breezes.

 The oak tree today wasn’t the one I knew. It was dying! 
It was shattered into fragments. I touched softly but it was so fragile that it busted into powder. It shared the moments of our love! 
It was a memento. Now its gone!

Suddenly I am on the road again! I can see people. But I couldn’t jot their faces. They were dressed but I couldn’t feel the colors. 
 These faceless people were sad. They were crying over someone! They were shouting in indistinct voices. I wanted to run! I felt I wouldnt be happy here!

I am playing guitar in a café! I guess that’s the place I am on my usual hours. I was sitting faced to the counter! I had flashes of her. Her smile! That was a difficult smile I guessed!

“oh my dog, what an elegance” I told to myself!

I couldn’t take my eyes off her! This was the first time I ever saw her in this place or maybe the first time I noticed! She was beautiful.

“hey, my friends say you are a smart boy..” the first ever lines by her to me. These words vibrated continuously.

 Louder and louder..

“…a smart boy”

“my friends”

“hey, my..”

I fell for her! It was reprehensible love! It was a failure since the start! We both knew but also I wanted a change! Rules of love can be amended I believed! It was a complicated relation of ours! Yet we cherished every moment!

Its night and I am walking below the street lamps! A girl with lipstick came and said,

“are you this sweet naturally or you are trying hard to be sweet to me” she had asked me this several times!

I don’t know why but I wished the color of the lipstick to be orange. The girl was looking straight to me! She was shy and nervous to talk to me! I moved my hands to touch her cheeks, she vanished!

 I am waiting for her in the usual café! I am giving her my special looks! She replies back with a wink!

I don’t want to leave this coffee shop! i want to call her, my voice disappears as an unheard scream.

I am not able to tolerate this! This can’t be happening!

I am beside her, far away from people! A place only she and I know! I am hugging her! I can feel the warmth of her body. We are kissing but again I can’t see her face! Something pulls me away back to the road I was floating!

I think of the plans of ours! Suddenly we are talking about adventures! How we both ran away from homes! How badly we both wanted to get drunken whole night doing weird acts and dancing below the moon on a shivery night! We plan for bungee and what not!

While I am having these thoughts, people are eyeing me from across the streets! I was time traveling and I was having a hundred visions at a time!

“I promise Isabel, to make you happy and to work hard to fulfill your ever wishes!”

I had said this everyday often. Those treks we would be having! I was just glad to be with her!

“I am in our café” she texted me.

 I am running wildly. 
Same road, curious eyes! 
Awaiting heart! 
I can wait no seconds to see her! 
I am just so impatient to be with her! 
I just miss her so badly!

All of a sudden my eyes get blurry! I can’t see anything in front!

Scary sounds of car horns.

People shouting and pointing towards me!

I saw the wide, fearful and guilty eyes right across the shattered windshild.

I went black.

I scream.

It couldn’t complete my cry!

“doctor. He woke up..look at his eyes”

“omg he should still be unconscious.”

I was breathing heavy! I was confused!

“you had a dream. Its normal for people to dream while in anesthesia. “

“I wasn’t dreaming.” I shouted.

“I know how I came here.. I know everything. Where is Isabel.?” I scream.

“Don’t touch me. I am fine! I know I was just touched by a stopping car..hey hey..”

Nobody was listening! i was shouting but my lips weren’t moving.

“Anybody listening to me?”

I felt tickling sensation on my legs.. I cant move them. Omg.. I cant feel my legs.

“doctor, something Is wrong with my legs.” I wanted him to know my woes.

No one heard me.

It wasn’t long before I knew I was in coma.

The only evidence that told them I was intact was my tears. I was crying without words.

I was crying. I wanted her to know. Our relation was a secret. Nobody knew we were dating!

“call Isabel”

“she is waiting for me in our café..tell her that I am here”

I heard them talking about my travel issues. They were taking me out of the country for treatment.

I wished she know why I wasn’t able to came to visit her.

 I turned my eyes around,

I heard the monitor on my side beeping in frightening way.

 I felt I was missing something here.

She was there. Lying helplessly. Pale and cold..

“Isabel, you hear us?” doctor was asking,

“okay, time of death-15:23”

 My heart burned and chocked when I knew she came for me when I was walking haphazardly.

The car had hit us both. It killed her and left me half alive.